Approaching 2015

As requested by someone, I will try to conclude this year the best I can. 2014 has been a year full of ups and downs, knowing that life wasn't a bed of roses when I have received multiples of failure this year. From examination results to emotionally break down. But well I will focus more to the happiness this year. We as humans usually remembers all the sad things but neglected the happy things in life which causes us to have lack of "syukur". But to be honest there's not much accomplishment I have gotten this year. Alhamdulillah, now I am a second year medical student, but i don't really feel like a medical student just yet. I couldn't remember lots of things (selalu lupa details yg belajar which makes me not even a student, urgh) and I could not rule out a disease Azmi's suffering each time. Oh just for your knowledge, Azmi is currently suffereing HFMD, Hand Foot Mouth Diseases, so he's right beside me right now. hihi #AuntMithali #perasan. haha So maybe i have to make a resolution that can brighten up this 2015. 

Ammar Azmi yg macho now kurg sikit sbb kena HFMD ;P haha

 

 Lets use pictures to describe what I haven't written :)

Raya celebration at Tiara's. Thankyou for having us. :D not in thepicture : Iman Husaini.

We celebrated Moon cake festival this year thanks to Jia Yee, Tracy, Ke Chi and lots more :)

The beginning of 2014, I started to grasp the way of studying of a medical student. My marks did improve but that is NOT my way of studying. I memorize from the beginning to the end of the lecture notes. But I guess that is the way of a medical student to study and score with flying colours. Right? haha mmg kena struggle menghafal. One thing I hate most. I can't even memorize a piano song that my teacher ask me to (it's only a kid song). It's not that I can't I just don't want. haha teruk kan perangai. haish. Well so this brings to my number one resolution

#1 : Cari Important Questions, understand and memorize it. AND make notes so those looks easier than the serabut lecture notes. haha (time cuti)

This wasn't during the January Holiday. Tak igt bila around bulan sembilan hihi

January Holiday.
We decided to make a two-week holiday in Selangor and Malacca (My house and Dylla's as our accomodation- jimat sikit duit haha) We called this trip as #holidaywithdylsar. Eventhough I lived in Selangor, I haven't been to lots of places haha Lame me. I can't travel alone and don't like to and I have no partner in crime to travel together. So since Dylla was here in Bangi, here's an opportunity to travel the world. (Selangor je la, lulz - but really hoping one day to travel the world with loved ones) so, ktorang pi rumah 4 musim, bukit cherakah. Tapi lawak jugak our journey, I took mama's GPS and letak la nk pi mana semua, sekali dia bawak pi hutan simpan stop tepi jalan haha luls Dylla : Sara, dah sampai" Sara: "Sampai mana ni wehh, tepi highway kejadah apa GPS ni hahaha :')))" Tapi, last last jumpa lah yg betul punya haha.Then our next destination is Arts places in shah alam, seronok tangkap gambar and edit semua(Seksyen 2 tk silap ada yg baru belum pergi), well our instafamous #dyllarezan do add her in instagram :P haha She edited my picture time ktorg pi hmm damansara something shopping mall. Most likes kay time tu among other pictures on that time hihi lol Reason of going there sbb ada payung cantik cantik, but on our trip, it was quite near to Chinese New Year, so takda payung ada tanglung je. haha dissapointed sikit lah but Nasib tanglung pun cantik la jugak. haha Last destination, kakak join. pi I-City. It was my first time going there. Sad story. Tapi kak pun tak pernah pi. haha Pandai jugak diorg buat ada banyak Wax museum, lampu lampu, Trick-Art museum, Snow Walk, water themepark, astronaut apa tah. But we went only to Wax Museum, Trick-art Museum and Snow Walk. Nice jugak la tak tahu kenapa diorg tk pandai promote, cause kalau tak pi tk tahu pun ada those things. Jemput pergi. haha

Malacca trip.
We took a bus from TBS to Malacca. Pretty exciting and adventurous kan? lol padahal ramai je naik bas but that was somehow our first time lagi lagi dengan kawan. haha When we reach to Malacca, we received a call which direct us straight to the hospital. Few hours after that we received a call saying her Datuk had passed away. (Innalillahiwainnailahirajiunn, please recite Al-fatihah for him, Alfatihah) I felt so helpless. I couldn't help anything. I'm not good with words so what I could say, I might say something that hurts more so I decided to keep quiet. Which was also not a good decision. I knew how sad were they, but I couldn't say I couldn't express, I didn't know how to calm them, I didn't know if I was able to be a doctor who would deliver a message like this. My mouth was glued. I felt like crying, but I thought I must be the one who have to stay strong. I don't know, everything makes me feel miserable. I'm sorry for not being there when I was right beside of you. i'm not good with words. I called mama asking what should I do, can she take me home, and terus mama okay. Malam tu bagitahu dylla, tomorrow i'm going home. Then mak dia cakap rasa bersalah cause i came as a 'tetamu' but i was not treated like one. But I felt more guilty for not able to help anything, emotionally or physically. Time org tengah sedih, kena sibuk layan pulak kita. I'm really really sorry. Dylla was being the one who stay strong at that time, and i tried not to pecahkan tembok kekuatan nya by not asking and I didn't even know if that was a right thing to do. :(  In the midst of sadness, Dylla bawak pi taman rama rama, then naik beca, we enter a museum in a really big kapal. We had a nice time but i know she was hiding her sadness behind her smile. Thankyou, I'm really sorry for not being a good friend. Saddest thing; you are right beside your bestfriend and you still couldn't help :(

Celebrating Birthday at home. Mama and I :)

Then coming to 26/2. What's so important of that date? Nahhh mmg tak important pun haha It's my birthday. #hadiahmana? kihkihkih I was waiting for my parcel I bought through online shop. Dah berapa hari delay tah. I was waiting eagerly and patiently. Then, kak yanti cakap, Ara ada bungkusan utk ara. I was like. "Yeayyy Baju ara dah smpai, Yeayy tak kena tipu." lol mana la tahu online shop to menipu ke kan haha When I took the parcel, eh lain nama pemberi ni..... But well the smile in my face got brighter. So arahan, wait until 26/2. Saja la nak bagi si pemberi tu risau, tak bagitahu dia dah terima parcel. Tapi si pemberi pulak tanya najwa. haha so Kantoi la sbb i cerita kat najwa. So malam tu bukak dengan excited nya to reived a pair of sneakers bunga bunga hihi Dah agak sikit dapat sneakers sbb najwa suruh ukur kaki haritu. haha Well, Najwa is his number one spy. haha Well, thankyou encik boss. Now, wearing it everyday to school. (read: university) :)


So this year we went to Sabah for the first time. Kakak, Ara and abang. We made a really drastic decision. Decision mmg dah lama tapi tak jadi jadi. So last minute esok nak pergi, ktorang beli tiket flight, cari hotel and everything haha Ktorang mmg tak plan bantai je terus pergi. next time nk pergi kena plan bebetul baru berbaloi. Dah la sepanjang trip tu I have a diarrhoea problem. haha stress betul. Mana tah dapat dari orang mana. hish. First day of the trip i slept for a while, i dreamt we wasted three days sleeping and only of the third day ktorg terbangun sedar sedar kena kejar flight. Menyesal gila dalam mimpi tu, luckily bila bangun eh it was only few hours. Fuhh lega. So our trip was to the pulau Manukan ++ ( basically all the pulau's ) Cantik air dia. Wow breathtaking scenery. Very recommended to go! Then ktorang naik Gunung Kinabalu, Panjat sampai kaki gunung around km, haha rugi kat situ lah masa memanjat, padahal bukan nk naik puncak. Then we travel to Tmpt air Panas, Stay situ quite lama. Next destination, Fish Spa, tamparuli kot? Sampai sampai dah tutup haha #$adlYf3 lol So tak sempat pi, rumah terbalik pun tak sempat and dairy farm. Orang cakap tu breathtaking looks like New Zealand scenery. Well, tak sempat pi so I need another trip to Sabah I guess. ;) hihi



Last but not least, a decision I Rarely did, I went to a someone's kenduri doa selamat. because i have very little guy friends so i rarely go out with them so yeah. Segan la i pi sorang, so i forced my bestfriends, Najwa and Raihan to tag along. Takda la force, diorg rela hati la jugak haha Sampai tu segan rasa nak balik je, "Najwa, kita pusing balik lah" hahaha Memang ada orang nk kena sepuk lah tu. Raihan balik so haritu we went to Saujana Putra and then to Putrajaya, we also got a free tol. Weeee ;) eh ke free tol to a week before haha tak ingat dah lol Nasib nampak Azam who had just arrived jugak. So ikut dia jalan sekali ke rumah. Cauk kay, I pakai dah la selekeh haha What if ? What if ? lol taknak bagitahu What if apa. Tapi okay la as i reached there, everyone's were really welcoming. :) Alhamdulillah hihi gedik, lol Tapi tak tahu nk borak apa, duk tunduk je lol lame me. hahaha Then we met again at KLIA. Time tu kurang sikit kot awkward nya. Ingat nk buat suprised sekali terkantoi jumpa dekat surau haha Bila dia takda, borak dengan dia punya siblings and sister in law. Okay la tak awkward haha sebab diorg perempuan lol. dah la segan lah nk cerita apa pun takda motif padahal. hope org tak baca sampai habis haha till hand meets keyboard, azmi dah bising haha toodles.

And many more....

Bawak those unfortunate to buy Raya things, baju melayu etc. Seronok tgk orang happy
 but this guy pemalu malu. haha he's standard 6. haha  And i made baju kurung myself. And saya beraya rumah Najwa hihi

ps: Eh lupa resolution #2, #3 + haha next time lah. lol

Hospital Orang Asli

This is a story about yesterday.

Alhamdulillah, I enjoy a lot during all the visits we made to the hospitals. (Hospital Sg Buloh and Hospital Orang Asli). So yesterday, we went to Hospital Orang Asli, which has a different phenomenon than normal hospitals have. It was a great experience. Sampai sampai, macam biasa ada staff akan layan ktorg, cerita about all the stuff we should know about this hospital. How at first diorang was handled by the rural ministry then some of the orang asli (the more educated one) fight for transferring the hospital to the Ministry of Health Department sbb the health department would know more about health. Tapi bila ubah, banyak taknak pergi to hospital and prefer traditional medication because they thought that the ministry do not care about them as much as the rural ministry does. (stigma comes in, haha) Yes, banyak masalah. Well, even in orang asli area there are lots of political issues --' haha

And there are lots of malnourished children and why is that so? Kalau kita la kan, if we were to have children, first thing kita buat if ada satu je roti? Sure la kita utamakan our children, right? It's surprising how they still amalkan the 'surviving' concept. The food is ready, Sapa cepat makan, sapa lambat, there's nothing left. And if there is leftover they will try to feed the sick one but if the sick one refuse to eat, nobody cares. Sila bersyukur sekarang kita ada mama ayah kalau sakit mesti suap paksa makan semua. Time to la the perfect timing utk mengada haha Yes, banyak belajar pasal gratitude bila pi hospital ni.

Not to panjang kan cerita, so we met one of the patient there, Mr Akam. He has been in the hospital for THIRTY YEARS. He had a polio infection which results in limbs problem. Therefore, he couldn't walk. The polio infection had been eliminated from him but due to the effect he could not survive on his own. He has no family to take care of him, so staying in the hospital is the Only choice. He couldn't talk but he could express how happy he is through his facial expression. The moment ktorang smpai dekat tempat tu belum tegur lagi dia, bunyi riuh riuh macam someone is coughing. Rupa rupanya dia nmpk ktorg lambai lambai and the only way to call us since he couldn't talk is by making those coughing noise. Dia senyum lebar sangat. He showed us notes and pictures he had receive throughout his stay. I regret a bit for not bringing my instax. Before i came here, kaklong ada cakap, ada kawan dia bgtahu, diorg tangkap gambar orang asli, then suddenly the orang asli bawak like tombak mcm tu sbb dia ingatkan the camera flash tu macam stealing their soul. So that's why tak terfikir pon nk bawak instax. But then we agreed to gave the instax i gave to fiqah before to him. Dia tetiba tarik satu beg ni and in the bag ada instax orang orang before ni pernah bagi. Dia senyum lebar. Dia tunjuk empat jari. lepas tu macam tangan dekat dada mcm expressing how happy he is.

Despite of having all the difficulties, he is a very happy person. Deep inside kita tak tahu, but utk orang yg kurang banyak dari kita, dia still bersyukur dengan apa yg dia kata. Alhamdulillah for everything. :)

And here, i present to you Mr Akam :)

Alfatihah

Yes. So I am crying.

Semalam abang cakap, "Tahu tak kawan Abang meninggal sebab cancer. Abang baru tahu dia sakit. Dah la rapat dengan abang. Dulu sampai tiga hari tak keluar rumah sebab main PS3 kat rumah dia." And I was like "cancer apa?" Abang jawab with a sad face "tk tahu. Dah lama tak jumpa sebab dia pindah ke Terengganu. Kerja sana" So my reaction was like usual je "Innalillah".

Today I scroll the Fb timeline just to realise that kawan abang tu is someone that I knew. Memang abang rapat gila I can sense now how sad he is. how regret he is not to have the time to meet up due to kerja yg banyak melampau. Busy. I always tagged along abang pi memana. Jalan la pi memana mmg sentiasa ikut. Semua kawan abang boleh kata kenal. Tapi yg ni mmg abang's bestfriend. Lepas balik dr Auckland, mmg keluar mesti ada dia. Pernah jugak kata "Abang takda kawan lain ke?" (in a joking scene) I remembered going to Gua Tempurung dengan abang and kawan abang, and he was one of them. Pernah keluar makan sesama abang and kawan, which was also him. Yes memang selalu jumpa. And kadang kadang dulu dia tegur jugak kt FB tanya how's study bagai semua. Waktu tak dapat MARA, tak silap dia ada jugak nasihat apa semua. Walaupun mungkin takda la rapat sangat compared to abang, rasa sedih sangat. Not knowing your bestfriend is fighting for his life, sangat sedih. Hm hope abang okay jugak.

Semoga diletakkan dalam kalangan orang yang beriman. Al fatihah.

30:36

I think this ayat is super deep. Menusuk jiwa raga kalbu.

"Dan apabila Kami berikan rahmat kepada manusia, nescaya mereka gembira dengan (rahmat) itu. Tetapi apabila mereka ditimpa sesuatu musibah disebabkan oleh kesalahan mereka sendiri, lalu mereka berputus asa" (30:36)

True indeed. Takda lah berputus asa but you start to overthinking and everything seems impossible. But the truth is you don't try hard enough. It's been many many years you didn't really feel the pressure of studying like you do now, and you happy with it. Sekarang? You just have to study harder and smarter. Remember, you are going to be a doctor! Remember, your act will affect your patients. You don't want to harm your patient. Sebab tu study medicine tu is not easy. Semoga dipermudah. InshaaAllah.

Free toll

Disebabkan tengok gambar pengantin semua cantik, maka kami pun berfikir "Jom lah kena practice candid ni" hahahahahahahahahah

Photoshoot @ rumah farah.

Okay la kan not bad la kan? hahahahahaha. Oh and btw the day i went out with dylla, i got a free toll from someone i don't know. At first dah ready bukak tingkap dah then tetiba the traffic light turned green, so macam eh kena bayar depan punya ke? then dia angkat mcm "cardboard" written " FREE "hehehe Made my day. hihi Thankyou stranger :)  Terus immediately call my sister, tp tk angkat. then bila dia call balik cerita la pasal dapat free toll, and dylla tanya "La, kau call nk bagitahu pasal dapat free toll je ke?" ngeh ngeh ngeh You know you don't have to spend a lot to make someone's day. Enough with rm1.60 toll made my day ! 

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I find this amusing. Haha

The story started with my mum couldn't reach me on the line. Scrolling the phone book and realised a number was saved as "Kawan Sara". So she dialled the number...

Mama : Hello ni Kawan Sara ke?
Kawan Sara: Tak. Ni Sara. Kenapa?
Mama : Nk cakap dengan Sara
Kawan Sara : Ni Sara tengah cakap.

Then it continued for a few seconds figuring what was it about. haha
Because the friend of mine name is SARAH hahahahahahahahahaha get it? lol

Ps : A friend of my age is getting married today. Congratulations! Semoga berkekalan ke anak cucu, inshaaAllah :)

Ps : oh AND the Photobook turned out amazing! Of good quality ! Some of it was blurry but that was due to the picture pxl but the one that was taken by camera, *thumbs up*. I made it from photobook.com.my :)

Welcoming Year 2 !

It's been a ______ (fill in the blank) since i last updated. Before I end my year-end break, i just feel like blogging. My one month and a half holiday was ehem-quite-wasted. haha. (like usual) Out of all i have listed to do, (the main ones) I only managed to finish two ? three? Around that. Belajar jahit baju melayu hanya tinggal sebagai belajar memotong baju melayu :')) But i manage to finish satu baju kurung. Baju only not with the kain haha Yes, procrastinate, buat kerja separuh jalan. haha not really a future doctor behaviour. (InshaaAllah, one day) And those that managed to be done, everything is done in this past week. haha Pemalas. Yesszaaaa haha

1. Baju kurung (top only)

2. Baju melayu (potong only) lol

3. Bake cupcake 

4. Buat photoalbum

5. ..... (secret) hehehe

So lagi dua hari nak masuk uni balik, to be a better medical student. to be a second-year medical student. Having mixed feelings. Scared, not-ready, Sad. haha Yes and more.

The one that excites me the most is making photoalbum hihi I'm not really good at keeping memories. If people throwback things, I actually have to dig my head and reminisce the memories. Now improving a bit but only for some individuals haha But with this photoalbum I can keep them in a picture containing 1000 words. Seronok lah. I'm actually going to do for my life in primary, secondary and university. I'm not good at describing so let the pictures speak :) Tapi tu lah aim nk buat semua time cuti ni, yg jadi only travelling in USA. but it's good enough. Perhaps, another holiday for the other three photobook. Later i tell you where did i do my photobook, but let me have a look at my photobook quality first utk recommend, okay ? SO below is the cover of my photobook :) Not really creative but okay lah kot? haha

Order Status: Bindery 

Till rajin kembali :) Bye!