Advice and kiss from a patient

Cerita hari ini.

We went to the psychiatric ward and there was a new patient. The patient was singing happily and was very talkative. While we were clerking her, she suddenly pointed to my shoes.

"Hey tak pakai stokinnnnn. Auratt!"
"Awak pun tak pakai"
"Saya takpa, saya sakit"

Ouch over there. Haha Allah sends advice from anywhere and whoever He wants. Lepas ni tkleh dah malas pakai. I do wear socks but some of the times when i cant find the same pair, i'll ignore it haha

Bila nak balik, semua orang dah bla, i was stucked with her. She suddenly kiss me on my cheek. I was able to avoid by putting my hand over my cheek. So she kissed over my hand. Haha new experienced for me. (A kiss by a stranger) 

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Allow me untuk maki sekejap

Aku tak faham la perempuan perempuan bila dah ada boyfriend. lebih kan laki drpd family. Apakahhhhhhhh? Nak emo guaaaa. Aku dah la nk exam esok ZZZZZZ

I love kids that love me !

Hellooooo. Hai. Sawadeekap. hihi

Aku jarang cerita pasal experience masuk hospital ni tapi harini mcm comel tapi kena reject kah kah.

Today two kids approached me. Sorang tu tetiba datang kat aku time basuh tangan. She looked amaze macam "Wow Kakak so amazing !" haha k NO. perasan kah kah. Dia nk basuh tangan jugak. So aku pun angkat la dia basuh tangan. Okay then settle. Dia nk tissue bagai so dah lap dah tangan semua dengan tissue.

Suddenly dia buat mulut cam nk kiss.


(Picture saved from google bukan gambar budak tu)

Aku macam eh dia ni kenapa dah.
"Adik nak kiss akak ke? Haa okay la kiss lah" - feeling extra weird. (mungkin dia nk balas budi kot basuh tangan dia)
Bila bagi pipi terus dia pandang tempat lain, pakai tissue lap mulut
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Mesti dalam hati dia akak ni dah kenapa perasan sangat. Orang suruh lap mulut je pun hahahahaha
Pastu after settle buang tissue semua, aku mcm okay dik. SEPP !

DIA REJECT ! - Ouch, sakitnya tuh di sini hahaha

Cuba teka cemana dia reject ? Dia buat macam nak sep tapi sep tangan sendiri.

I got rejected mannnn. luls


Second boy, biasa je la tetiba dia datang just nk dukung. Tp well I felt love !



Seronok actually masuk clinical years, banyak sangat new and interesting experience. Wad kanak kanak ni best la sebab I kan suka babies and small children hehehehe

Ada satu budak ni sangat sangat buat aku terharu and felt loved. <3 p="">She is an indian girl. Dia sangat sangat sangat friendly.

Biasa la kan budak budak semua takut sakit amik darah. So time tgh borak with her mom, doctor panggil suruh amik darah. So I waited patiently at the bedside. (Budak budak amik dekat bilik special sbb tknk bagi orang lain cuak kalau dengar diorg jerit haha ) Tetiba doctor datang balik, awak tolong saya kejap boleh ? Kena pegang kuat kuat tau dia gerak gerak jerit jerit.

I was expecting alamak mesti nnt budak tu benci aku. Sebab paksa dia kena amik darah even sakit. Macam dah risau lah, I don't want kids to not like me.

"Tgk akak ni, amik darah... NOOOOO!"

Guess what actually happen ? Bila aku masuk dalam bilik tu aku panggil nama dia.

"Akakkkkkk, tolonggggggg !" - suara dia macam oh hero dah datang nk tolong.
"-Nama- kuat kannnn? Tahan sikit kayyy, doctor amik darah je."

I was expecting dia struggle teruk tau, when I came, she was like so strong not struggling, trying not to cry or shout.

It seems to me that I really give her the courage. (Mungkin aku perasan je tp I felt that way)

So weekend ni bila balik, I really wanna give her colour pencils and some pictures to colour, sedih sikit rupanya dia dah discharge today :/ but Alhamdulillah maksudnya dia dah sihat lah :)

I love kids that love me hehehe and ofcourse everyone that loves me too ! <3 br="">

Last Seminar in Taylor's

Saja nak share sikit intipati anti depressant seminar esok sbb comel penguin ni hihi rasa bahagia buat mungkinkah dapat sikit sikit therapeutic effect nya? Hahaha

Sedih

Sangat sangat sedih. I felt every part of me is falling down. I wont be surprised if I get an F for this OSPE and OSCE. It was the first time that i had to perform the clinical skills first. The clinical skills tested is catheterisation. I was quite nervous and i took a lot of time cleaning the suprapubic area, the private part and stuff, and as i inserted the catheter into the mannequin, the bell rang. I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED DOING THE CRUCIAL PART. NOT EVEN A BIT OF IT. And since that was the first station, it demotivates me till the end. Everything seems miserable. EVERY SINGLE THING. Then i say this microscopic picture, i was so sure it was Chronic Pyelonephritis, but then i saw the description : large and the kidney picture looks so huge. Chronic Pyelonephritis should'nt be larged. So i wrote everything else other than chronic pyelonephritis, again the bell rang. Then, i realised large pelvicalyceal, not large kidney. IT IS THE DESCRIPTION OF CHRONIC PYELONEPHRITIS. Yes. I should have followed what i saw microscopically instead of imagining the gross features. The kidney looks large because they zoomed in the picture. Urgh!

Emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo dgn diri sendiri. And now I'm writing because I just have no .... (feel in the blank tak sure perkataan apa sesuai) to face anyone so bersendirian di labcomp. lol

Lesson learnt, jangan nk nervous sgt smpai buat benda yg tk penting pun gila detail. And kalau dah tahu microscopic jangan kena tipu dengan imgination sendiri tengok gross dia -.-

ps: And That's not the only two i screwed up.

Today

Tadi lepas exam, biasa la stress baca buku so Suddenly I felt like scrolling the whatsapp messages. I'm the type that keeps every conversation until it is necessary that i need to delete something (due to memory full or others). If not, the conversation remains in my phone forever. So scrolling and scrolling, i saw a few messages that i didn't even realise before lol A few birthday messages were ignored. I really really didn't realise those messages, i swear. I'm really sorryyyyy. and It's better late than never right? Thankyouu so so much ! Maybe because I just changed my phone sbb tu tak sedar. hihi sorry ! (ps: Yes, i found ways on how to transfer the conversation from my old phone to a new phone, and i succeeded) *peace* haha Am i the only one weird cause i met lots of people who delete all their convo most of the time? haha 

(Kalau org yg aku ckp thankyou tu jenis delete message, mesti dia macam kenapalah sara tetiba ckp thankyou ? hahaha) 

Ps: Esok OSPE and OSCE for urinary system, pray for me ! Thankyou :) 

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Alhamdulillah, all praised to Allah for giving me such a beautiful life. It has been a while since I am no longer as confidence as I was before. I know my confidence level dropped since the MARA announced that I couldn't fly. I always cry and cry and cry. Even after years, sometimes i'm still crying over the same reason. Lol my father once said " Ara dah tk macam dulu, dulu ara kuat, buat lah pape, jangan harap ara nangis, mesti selalu lawan sapa yg kacau, but now.. nangis je keje" Yes I do admit saya mmg macam tu. But I am so lucky to have someone that i can trust utk nangis, untuk mengada yang sentiasa tak give up Walaupun i can be such a pain in the ass, tiba tiba sensitive semacam takda reason, tetiba happy pulak smpai jd awkward budak ni sedih ke happy. Tetiba random experiment to make sure things that i doubt out of the blue, balik penat penat drive kena layan pulak orang ni terasa lol yes I know i am mengada hihi Thankyou 😊 At times, I felt so regret for taking this journey, if only i choose something else i wouldn't have to be this sad. But then i met all of them, they gave me strength to survive this medical journey. To survive getting an F lol So in every clouds, there is a silver lining. I guess this is mine. I have them in my life. Thankyou kawan kawan 😊😋 Am officially  twenty and that marks my maturity. Cewah tipu je. Haha inshaaAllah saya akan makin terima sikit demi sikit.

Ps: saya igt nk upload video kt insta tapi tak reti nk edit cantik cantik haha am still a newbie.

Ps: For those SPM leavers yang baru dpt result and result tu kurang memuaskan. Don't worry too much. It's not the end. I got an 8A+ and 1A and i didn't get what i want. The attitude towards the result, how you deal with it, how you plan your road is what matters. I realised I was a bit overconfident with my results so I took things for Granted. So make a plan, inshaaAllah whatever your results are, you'll get what you want at the end. As long as you keep the effort going.